michaelmallon.net » past http://www.michaelmallon.net a 26 year teenage existential dilemma... Fri, 16 Jul 2010 06:53:00 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0 exploration and beginning… http://www.michaelmallon.net/2009/11/21/exploration-and-beginning/ http://www.michaelmallon.net/2009/11/21/exploration-and-beginning/#comments Sat, 21 Nov 2009 08:22:48 +0000 Michael http://www.michaelmallon.net/?p=160 And I’ve realized tonight that I have more un-resolved issues to reconcile than I previously thought.

Thinking of the past, and fantasizing about what lives my previous acquaintances might now have, it makes me feel lazy, and unimportant.

(both might be true)

Maybe its a last-ditch attempt to try and impress old friends and make old flames jealous (even though they ought not be?)

I’m not sure of anything anymore, except that, regardless of how socially awkward I was and still am, I miss my old friends.

Frankl said it best, life can have meaning in one of 3 ways, and one of those was by experiencing something OR encountering someone.

Maybe meaning can be found by simple encountering friends, even if they have no super-meaning for society as a whole?

Or is this another futile, fruitless attempt at self-affirmation? Another attempt to direct what little ambition I have left at defining myself in spite of what I have failed at, what I may have succeeded at, and what I have still yet to discover about myself?

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