so do parents intentionally try and stress their children out?
seems that way to me and i can’t take it anymore.
so i need to find housing for school after all, and this of course after the housing deadline has passed and summer is already half over.
I feel off.
All day, I felt off. All night too.
Do you ever feel that its exhausting to try and fit in where you currently are? Maybe its because you’ve changed, or your situation has changed, or the whole world has changed.
Maybe nothing’s changed.
But still, you feel as though something doesn’t fit anymore?
That’s me.
it is nearly insurmountable for me to find the words necessary to adequately explain the level of disconnection that i feel in regards to modern society.
when the one outlet by which i am normally able to bring myself peace, albeit temporary peace but peace nonetheless, written word, escapes me, i am left to ponder if everything i have thought was right, is in fact still so.
i have come to accept that the means by which i find myself for a short term re-connected with society are wholly destructive, and yet i cannot free myself of said vices.
how is it that one finds their own personal harmony? i accept that harmony and happiness are not the same, and i do not crave happiness, merely harmony, balance, oneness with my own essence.
addendum to an earlier post, if indeed i have been alotted 0.001% or less as my total amount of happiness (on a 40 year minimum scale for comparison) than it means that i am only allowed 14.6 days of happiness in my life… and i’m probably close to the end of that already, so i better hope that i don’t live past 30 or so.
Worked out to the year on a 40 year scale, than i am only allowed 8.76 hours of happiness a year in order to be consistent.
Wow…. numbers are fun… they kind of make you want to fall asleep and never wake up at times.
Can somebody please explain to me not only the origin, but the “why” behind the nation’s (and largely the world’s) belief that money is everything?
When and where did we suddenly take human life and put a dollar value next to it?!
Why have we taken human life and assigned it a dollar value?
For what reason did we conceive money in the first place?!
If somebody can educate me, please do, because it makes no sense whatsoever to me.
