I feel guilty for not blog­ging the past few days.

I also feel kind of strange that my pat­tern seems to be con­tin­u­ing, so far, of being totally right about peo­ple hav­ing the wrong frame of ref­er­ence for me, but also, about being very wrong in all my pre­dic­tions of how those peo­ple will react once they have the right frame of reference.

So now I’m start­ing to feel like I’m wait­ing for the other shoe to drop, again.

I just want to be able to move on with my life, I want to con­tinue to feel good about myself every­day, and I want the peo­ple I care about to know that I feel good about myself, and that maybe, my life will actu­ally turn out ok now

I also want a cam­era again, and I’m sure any­one who reads my blog is tired of me post­ing that, since real­is­ti­cally, nobody is going to spend $2k on cam­era and lens, just because I put it on an inter­net “wishlist.”

Still though, I really miss pho­tog­ra­phy, I don’t think I ever real­ized just how much I enjoyed it, until I sold my camera.