So for some rea­son I feel com­pelled to start answer­ing what few com­ments i receive, with new blog posts, maybe its just an attempt to write with some reg­u­lar­ity again?

Any­way, Car­olyn wrote (in part):

I hope noth­ing I said was too harsh this week­end at Dis­ney. Feel­ing lost is an awful feel­ing and it’s fool­ish for any per­son to sug­gest peo­ple choose to feel depressed; as if any one would will­ingly choose to feel sad and worthless.

I know you didn’t mean any harm with what you said, but for me, the effect is just more of the same, imme­di­ate rein­force­ment of how utterly worth­less I feel I am.

I’m really not jok­ing when I say I’ve got more issues to deal with than most peo­ple have begun to imagine/expect I have, but noth­ing changes for me, even know­ing I have these issues, doesn’t empower me in any way.

And maybe thats me being lazy, like Car­olyn sug­gested, or maybe its a hint that I’ve got still another, deeper, debil­i­tat­ing issue I’ve not even dis­cov­ered yet?