about 2 months ago - No comments
So I feel guilty about not updating at all in December.
I hate feeling guilty.
In a way its why I hate being in debt (to anyone for any reason.)
I also hate new years resolutions, but since I had such a great time over the past few weeks, I made one this year.
Its not the typical resolution, I can’t stand people that think an incremental More >
about 3 months ago - No comments
And I’ve realized tonight that I have more un-resolved issues to reconcile than I previously thought.
Thinking of the past, and fantasizing about what lives my previous acquaintances might now have, it makes me feel lazy, and unimportant.
(both might be true)
Maybe its a last-ditch attempt to try and impress old friends and make old flames jealous (even though they More >
about 4 months ago - 2 comments
An addendum to my writing on the topic of “affirmation.”
To pre-empt any confusion (though I believe cousin Catherine understands precisely what I wrote about) I’m talking about affirmation as written about by Conrad M. Baars, M.D. in his book, “Born Only Once: The Mirracle of Affirmation” which I absolutely devoured tonight, in one sitting over coffee.
The section on More >
about 4 months ago - 3 comments
I suppose this is a message intended for everyone, and yet only one person at the same time, or perhaps more precisely, that it will find some meaning with all, but most meaning with only one.
I’ve spent a while tonight reading about “the miracle of affirmation” and how central it is to finding true human happiness and joy, More >
about 4 months ago - 4 comments
I feel the need to apologize in advance for what tone this blog may or may not take (I never really know going in how a message will end), but I want to make sure that to everyone who has expressed their support, please understand that I’m grateful for your friendship, and your thoughts.
To everyone who’s suggested More >
about 4 months ago - No comments
Well, in light of my unemployment claim being denied, admissions to UC being closed until fall 2010, and my failure at life in general, I’ve decided to sell my car, so if anyone is interested, you can read more about the car here:
http://forums.focaljet.com/team-rigz/575624-my-work-progress-2004-pzev-sedan.html
and here:
http://forums.focaljet.com/vehicles-sale/617459-sale-2004-pzev-sedan-svt-style.html
and see more pictures here:
http://picasaweb.google.com/s0niqu3/CarStuffEtc#
Clear title, no warranty, mileage is around 55,000.
The SVT 4-wheel More >
about 4 months ago - No comments
Just some great quotes/passages from a book I ought to have read years ago.
“Huxley and Orwell did not prophesy the same thing. Orwell warns that we will be overcome by an externally imposed oppression. But in Huxley’s vision, no Big Brother is required to deprive people of their autonomy, maturity and history. As he saw it, people will More >
about 4 months ago - No comments
“At Cavanaugh Park
Where I used to sit
All alone in the dark
And dream about things
That I cannot say
You always said destiny
Would blow me away
And nothings gonna blow me away
At Cavanaugh Park
Where you used to take me
To play in the sand
And said to me son
One day you’ll be a man
And men can do terrible things
Yes they can
There was never any place
For someone like me
To be totally happy
I’m running out of clock
And that ain’t More >
about 4 months ago - 1 comment
“There is a pleasure in the pathless woods;
There is a rapture on the lonely shore;
There is society, where none intrudes,
By the deep sea, and music in its roar:
I love not man the less, but Nature more…”
– Lord Byron
about 4 months ago - 2 comments
While I’ll never be able to say it as eloquently or profoundly as I said it tonight in conversation, I need to find the context by which to be understood, that doesn’t involve any level of comparison to my siblings, because we don’t belong on the same scale, we’re not the same type of people.
It bothers me More >
about 4 months ago
Uh, how does that make YOU a failure? Surely you don’t think that bureaucratic systems are without their glitches, gremlins, and gobbledygook? You should witness Dick’s interminable phone conversations with Medicare! Go back to “Context” and move forward. Make phone calls, ask questions, persist.
about 4 months ago
I want to talk with you, as much as you dislike to be available by cell phone. I am free tomorrow. Can you give me a call?