about 2 months ago - No comments
So I feel guilty about not updating at all in December.
I hate feeling guilty.
In a way its why I hate being in debt (to anyone for any reason.)
I also hate new years resolutions, but since I had such a great time over the past few weeks, I made one this year.
Its not the typical resolution, I can’t stand people that think an incremental More >
about 3 months ago - No comments
And I’ve realized tonight that I have more un-resolved issues to reconcile than I previously thought.
Thinking of the past, and fantasizing about what lives my previous acquaintances might now have, it makes me feel lazy, and unimportant.
(both might be true)
Maybe its a last-ditch attempt to try and impress old friends and make old flames jealous (even though they More >
about 4 months ago - 2 comments
An addendum to my writing on the topic of “affirmation.”
To pre-empt any confusion (though I believe cousin Catherine understands precisely what I wrote about) I’m talking about affirmation as written about by Conrad M. Baars, M.D. in his book, “Born Only Once: The Mirracle of Affirmation” which I absolutely devoured tonight, in one sitting over coffee.
The section on More >
about 4 months ago - 3 comments
I suppose this is a message intended for everyone, and yet only one person at the same time, or perhaps more precisely, that it will find some meaning with all, but most meaning with only one.
I’ve spent a while tonight reading about “the miracle of affirmation” and how central it is to finding true human happiness and joy, More >
about 4 months ago - 4 comments
I feel the need to apologize in advance for what tone this blog may or may not take (I never really know going in how a message will end), but I want to make sure that to everyone who has expressed their support, please understand that I’m grateful for your friendship, and your thoughts.
To everyone who’s suggested More >
about 4 months ago - No comments
Just some great quotes/passages from a book I ought to have read years ago.
“Huxley and Orwell did not prophesy the same thing. Orwell warns that we will be overcome by an externally imposed oppression. But in Huxley’s vision, no Big Brother is required to deprive people of their autonomy, maturity and history. As he saw it, people will More >
about 4 months ago - 2 comments
Wow, so as usual, life likes to keep me down.
So for no reason, and with no accompanying explanation, I received an “amendment” to my unemployment insurance claim, informing me that my award (that I’ve yet to receive any part of) was now ZERO.
I even failed at unemployment.
Cheers capitalism/u.s./civil society, I think I’m over you.
about 4 months ago - No comments
“At Cavanaugh Park
Where I used to sit
All alone in the dark
And dream about things
That I cannot say
You always said destiny
Would blow me away
And nothings gonna blow me away
At Cavanaugh Park
Where you used to take me
To play in the sand
And said to me son
One day you’ll be a man
And men can do terrible things
Yes they can
There was never any place
For someone like me
To be totally happy
I’m running out of clock
And that ain’t More >
about 4 months ago - 2 comments
While I’ll never be able to say it as eloquently or profoundly as I said it tonight in conversation, I need to find the context by which to be understood, that doesn’t involve any level of comparison to my siblings, because we don’t belong on the same scale, we’re not the same type of people.
It bothers me More >
about 4 months ago - 2 comments
I’m just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don’t need no roads
In fact they follow me
And we just go in circles
– Paramore, Misguided Ghosts
Edited @ 11:30am, Thursday October 15, 2009, for brevity (and to minimize awkward phone calls and “intervention” attempts from friends/family.)
Here goes, its OK to resent me, I represent and embody the failure of my parents, More >
about 4 months ago
Oh yes.
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