about 6 months ago - No comments
So I feel guilty about not updating at all in December. I hate feeling guilty. In a way its why I hate being in debt (to anyone for any reason.) I also hate new years resolutions, but since I had such a great time over the past few weeks, I made one this year. Its not the typical resolution, I can’t stand people
about 8 months ago - No comments
And I’ve realized tonight that I have more un-resolved issues to reconcile than I previously thought. Thinking of the past, and fantasizing about what lives my previous acquaintances might now have, it makes me feel lazy, and unimportant. (both might be true) Maybe its a last-ditch attempt to try and impress old friends and make old flames jealous
about 8 months ago - 2 comments
An addendum to my writing on the topic of “affirmation.” To pre-empt any confusion (though I believe cousin Catherine understands precisely what I wrote about) I’m talking about affirmation as written about by Conrad M. Baars, M.D. in his book, “Born Only Once: The Mirracle of Affirmation” which I absolutely devoured tonight, in one sitting over coffee. The
about 8 months ago - 3 comments
I suppose this is a message intended for everyone, and yet only one person at the same time, or perhaps more precisely, that it will find some meaning with all, but most meaning with only one. I’ve spent a while tonight reading about “the miracle of affirmation” and how central it is to finding true human happiness and
about 8 months ago - 4 comments
I feel the need to apologize in advance for what tone this blog may or may not take (I never really know going in how a message will end), but I want to make sure that to everyone who has expressed their support, please understand that I’m grateful for your friendship, and your thoughts. To everyone who’s
about 8 months ago - No comments
Just some great quotes/passages from a book I ought to have read years ago. “Huxley and Orwell did not prophesy the same thing. Orwell warns that we will be overcome by an externally imposed oppression. But in Huxley’s vision, no Big Brother is required to deprive people of their autonomy, maturity and history. As he saw it, people
about 8 months ago - 2 comments
Wow, so as usual, life likes to keep me down. So for no reason, and with no accompanying explanation, I received an “amendment” to my unemployment insurance claim, informing me that my award (that I’ve yet to receive any part of) was now ZERO. I even failed at unemployment. Cheers capitalism/u.s./civil society, I think I’m over you.
about 9 months ago - No comments
“At Cavanaugh Park Where I used to sit All alone in the dark And dream about things That I cannot say You always said destiny Would blow me away And nothings gonna blow me away At Cavanaugh Park Where you used to take me To play in the sand And said to me son One day you’ll be a man And men can do terrible things Yes
about 9 months ago - 1 comment
“There is a pleasure in the pathless woods; There is a rapture on the lonely shore; There is society, where none intrudes, By the deep sea, and music in its roar: I love not man the less, but Nature more…” – Lord Byron
about 9 months ago - 2 comments
While I’ll never be able to say it as eloquently or profoundly as I said it tonight in conversation, I need to find the context by which to be understood, that doesn’t involve any level of comparison to my siblings, because we don’t belong on the same scale, we’re not the same type of people. It bothers
CousinCatherine: Love her.
Paul Ford: I am cogitating on ways to help you break free. I'll be checking in on you.
Carolyn: I hope nothing I said was too harsh this weekend at Disney. Feeling lost is an awful feeling and...
Susan: Hmmmm. It's a big world to fit into. Try something else. You know we're behind you.
Love,
Susan