well, after looking at the numbers today, for the first time in my life, i’m actually going to fail all of my classes this quarter.
for some reason i don’t think i’ll be wanted up at u.c.s.b. next quarter.
Archive for November, 2007
Eddie Vedder - “Society”
Oh it’s a mystery to me.
We have a greed, with which we have agreed…
and you think you have to want more than you need…
until you have it all, you won’t be free.Society, you’re a crazy breed.
I hope you’re not lonely, without me.When you want more than you have, you think you need…
and when you think more then you want, your thoughts begin to bleed.
I think I need to find a bigger place…
cause when you have more than you think, you need more space.Society, you’re a crazy breed.
I hope you’re not lonely, without me.
Society, crazy indeed…
I hope you’re not lonely, without me.There’s those thinkin’ more or less, less is more,
but if less is more, how you keepin’ score?
It means for every point you make, your level drops.
Kinda like you’re startin’ from the top…
and you can’t do that.Society, you’re a crazy breed.
I hope you’re not lonely, without me.
Society, crazy indeed…
I hope you’re not lonely, without me
Society, have mercy on me.
I hope you’re not angry, if I disagree.
Society, crazy indeed.
I hope you’re not lonely…
without me.
And I just had the wonderfully uncomfortable phone call with my brother, explaining to him that I won’t be joining them for thanksgiving (because it makes me inexplicably uncomfortable) and now get to feel like shit, for not joining them for thanksgiving (again, because the idea makes me inexplicably uncomfortable) because it “means a lot” to my brother.
Personally, I don’t understand why my presence means anything in the first place.
Well, as of this weekend, I’ve realized a few things things…
1) I don’t want to go to law school and/or be a lawyer
2) I have little to no interest in philosophy anymore
3) I’m going to be lucky to even barely pass my classes this semester
4) I will almost certainly fail out of school if I stay in the philosophy major
5) I will not meet the minimum GPA necessary to maintain my scholarships and I am unsure as to the specifics of any probationary period pertaining to my scholarships, thus, I will probably lose them
6) I have no clue whatsoever what I would prefer to major in
I’m sure there’s more, but those are the key points.
So, any thoughts on what I should do with my life? P.S. stay in school and finish the philosophy degree is not a viable answer, see points #1-6 above.
