I’m beginning to seriously question whether philosophy (or even college in general) is the right course for me.
For some (seemingly) inexplicable reason, I cannot focus this semester, and where in the past I’ve done exceptionally well in school, this semester I’m floundering on even the simplest of assignments. I’m sure that part of my inability to focus this semester stems from my father’s death, but I don’t think that has a lot to do with it (though of course I could be wrong.)
I’m at a point where I have no idea what I want to do with my life (though sure I say law school sounds good, in actuality I’m not sure I’d make a good law student) and I find myself less and less interested in obscure, esoteric questions that hold little to no bearing on life (i.e. philosophy in general) but in the same regards, I have no real passion (nor proclivity or talent) towards the arts or sciences either.
Even more surprising to me, is that I’ve dealt with depression before, and this seems different to me in that I don’t feel necessarily hopeless (nor really hopeless at all save for the uncertainty regarding school), nor does this effect my ability to function physically or socially (I still go to the gym, go to work, interact with friends and family.)
Anyway, I just hope that an outside opinion can offer some insight into my situation, and maybe what direction to take.
Hey… just read your blog. I know it might sound a little odd but maybe you should check out the career center at moorpark. They might be able to do some personality and career evaluations and offer insight as to what you want to do. And maybe once you get out of camarillo and head up north it might make things more clear. I know that when i was at moorpark plaoting around not knowing what to do it really helped to talk to people who try and help people “figure out life”. And I have this bool called “what color is your parachute” that is all about finding the right job & lifestyle for your personality. i will be home this weekend and i can bring it home with me for you to take a look at if you want. i hope that helped if not I tried lol
love ya
kat
Hey, you’re a really smart person so I don’t know why you’re so down on yourself. Anyways, a lot of people don’t know what they want to do with their life and those who do know what they wanted to do since high school end up not wanting to do whatever it was they wanted to do 5 years later and are stuck. Um…I guess you should just try new things, see what you like and what is out there. Travel more I suppose?
Um..that’s all.
P.S. Do you have the pictures from Disney Land still? Do you think you could post them whenever you have the time? Or e-mail them to me at mariahconklin@hotmail.com ?
Thanks.