Archive for January, 2007

brewskies eulogy

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on 20070113
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i’m sitting here at my computer, contemplating my dad’s health which has been of concern for the past 2 days, and a good friend sends me a very interesting image… of an online dating profile page that happens to be of another friend of mine.

i love these things! how does my friend describe himself? does he call himself athletic and muscular instead of “anorexic-ally thin”? what about passionate and boisterous instead of “loud, angry, upset italian”?

oh, these things are usually great, i’ve gotta see this.

the first thing i see, is that he openly writes that he’s joined the air force. alright! this information is in fact something he has been trying to keep secret from me for a month, why, i don’t know, but it didn’t work, and i’ve known as long as he’s known, and frankly, i don’t really care. however, i’m sure he will be expecting me to make a big deal about him joining the air force, well, here it is…

“THIS IS A BIG DEAL”

right.

the second thing i notice are all the fun little half-truths, the ones we don’t even know we’re telling most of the time, like his not smoking (well, he doesn’t smoke regularly, but he does smoke) or his never doing drugs (do you explicitly mean schedule 1 drugs or do salvia and alcohol count?) oh alcohol, its a separate tab, at least he’s close and says “often” when in fact it should say “i’m a weak little alcoholic girl.”

ok, enough chiding, why the eulogy?

because apparently he laid our friendship to rest a while ago, so its time it had a proper burial.

ya know what brewskie, if its crap to you, that’s fine with me.

i hope the air force is everything you hope it isn’t, so that you will grow as a person in ways beyond everyones imagination. i hope you finally discover what really matters to you, and that you do it before march 27, because right now you’re just a lost little boy, and the military loves that, because it makes you easier to turn into a statistic and a tool.

i enjoy my personhood, and i will gladly choose being a poor, broke, homeless college student every-time over being a contrived, de-humanized tool for one of the most evil governments in the history of humanity.

most of all, i’m sorry that i respected you so much and for so long, when you clearly never respected me.

C’est la mort.

surgery…

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on 20070111
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and thus shall begin some major computer surgery…

upgrading my hard drive from 80gb to 160gb, and replacing the optical drive (single-layer dvd burner with a dual-layer dvd burner)

sadly, apple’s attentiveness when it comes to design makes these operations a royal pain.

apple, whatever will we do with you?

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on 20070109
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so apple started the whole “macworld” thing today up in san francisco, and good ‘ol steve jobs unveiled two “stupendously-fantastically-spectacularly-amazingly-incredible” products (please, please realize that i’m being sarcastic) the apple-tv and the iphone.

apple-tv, uhm, er, what the hell are we going to do with you? i’m sorry, i just don’t get it, it doesn’t make much sense… its not quite a tivo, not a contender for windows media center since its not a full computer, its kind of like the abomination that is the windows media center extender class of devices, which for the most part, failed at market.

and iphone, wow! honestly an amazing take on integrating an ipod and a smartphone, and i think it will be the beginning of a new line of products for apple, and i can’t wait for version 2! however the touch interface leaves a lot to be desired, because you have to be looking that the screen whenever you want to do something (no drive-by-feel controls) and lest not forget that they are partnering exclusively with cingular (now a part of at&t) who are notorious for spying on their customers which would seem to radically contradict apple’s previous stance that privacy, security, and choice were both fundamental and foundational to their consumer experience.

way to go apple…

and to top off the day, we get a new wireless router (which slipped through most of the tech news sites until just now thanks to all the iphone frenzy) that is really just apple playing catch-up to the rest of the industry who’ve all had draft-n wireless networking products on the market for 6 months.

ugh, and of course stevey-boy declines to offer any new details about the forthcoming mac osx 10.5 (leopard) operating system upgrade do later this spring, or the partnering ilife 07 and iwork 07 software packages (which i was personally hoping would be on-sale today, allowing me to finally completely rid myself of microsoft office)

again, truly remarkable day apple… i hope you’ve got something stupendously-fantastically-spectacularly-amazingly-incredible” up your sleeves for later this spring, otherwise you won’t be seeing anymore of my money until 2008.

introspection…

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s0niqu3
on 20070104
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its always humbling to reflect on time past and the many ways by which your life has changed.

on the surface, we always say that we’re the same person we’ve always been, believing that age-old myth that personhood is a constant, yet when we slow down and examine ourself critically, we see that this is not the case, and that personhood, like life in general, is a continuum that is always changing.

we can do no more than pick out small moments in time, isolate them from the continuum, and try our best to embed that in our memory, and this collective of small moments, of minute fractions of time, is the way by which we measure our life and our personhood.

how then do they matter? in much the same way that the collective sum of all my photographs is a mere few minutes, do these isolated memories not represent mere tiny fractions of the stages of my personhood? as the elements (wind, sun, rain, snow, etc.) can change from one mili-second to another, cannot personhood change as well?

am i the same person at the time of typing this line as i was when i typed the first?

i certainly do not believe myself to be the same person i was ten years ago, and my memories from childhood seem more like memories of a movie than actual events from my life.

is examining oneself critically really important? do we gain anything from attempting to measure how much we have changed from any one point in time to the next?

in a way, i suppose we’ve always changed more than we expected, and yet not as much as we would have liked.

drop the ball….

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on 20070101
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hello, welcome to disneyland, happy new year, and we hope you enjoy your day, just don’t forget that tonight when we say we’re going to drop the ball, we intend to do so every way possible.